So... I did neglect this blog :/
maybe I'm really not capable in writing in one. I had couple of blogs before this, yet it never last that long. Compared to blog, I like a piece of paper a lot more, it feels more personal.
Anyway, my birthday is in two days. I'm not excited, bassicaly because college starts on that day. I guess I'm too used on spending my birthdays at home, thinking back on the previous birthdays I had. Waiting for somebody to give me what I desperately been waiting for for years by now... I never wanted something so much as a birthday wish, but it is unlikely that I will get it.
I didn't when he was still here, what makes it possible that I will now that he's gone for four years?
Impossible, yet I cannot stop from hoping.
...what am I doing talking about him, anyway?
I want a baby dolphin.
