#08

wow, it has been over two years since I last updated this blog. I guess I'm really not made for this kind of thing since I tend to grow out of it very quickly.

so exactly how much time have passed? I recall creating this blog when I was just about to enter college, with hope that by the time I graduate this blog would serve as a reminder of my years. Here I am now, in my 3rd year of college, gone as far as 8 entries while letting the past years drift away just like that.

when I think of it, I am that type of person who always happen to adapt things very late. Not in term of trends whatsoever, but my life and my own person develops very very slowly.... these days I like to take a look back, not to mourn, but to think.

time.

I was once left by time, then I ran to chase it, and I had thought all these years I've caught up with it, but away from the too proud me of having 'defeated' the bad past, I have come to the realization I am not by much different than I was before. The fact that I had thought of my little chase to be successful was always mirthful to think of, how can I be so proud of doing what I should be doing? It's ridiculous.

what is more ridiculous is that I took this long just to look back, and when I did, I thought "I haven't moved that far at all".


Really, I barely inched at all.

#07

yay I finally got an idea for my advertising assignment! we were told to create a brand for "gitar listrik Indonesia"

I think the keywords are a bit hard, and it took me weeks to think of something (actually within those week I haven't even tried) but anyway, important thing is that I have something in mind ;)
I hope it's not too shallow or anything.

all I need to do is read some history and do the writing. it's going to be though because since I'm Indonesian, I can't write well in Bahasa. My English is not the best, but it's still so much easier to form sentences in English rather than Bahasa.... so I hope I still manage to convey what's the actual meaning behind the brand.

I met Shabrina and Nadilla today! so happy, but then I drank coffee and my stomach messed up. I feel nauseous while doing research for my assignment, and now I'm just practically hungry since I didn't eat dinner.

almost midnight now, I still haven't cleaned myself up and I got class at 8 OTL



anyway, I'm just here to blab about my assignment. so bye.

#06

my midterm exams finally over! I have tomorrow and the day after off from college, so that makes it 4 days of break including weekends! omg, finally.

It has been a while since I can laze around and not worry about stuff for the next day. College really does take my time.

I can't wait to get my result, though. So far, the ones that came out are only Marketing and Indonesian State and Philosophy. I only got 75 for Marketing :( I spent all day studying, so it really wasn't the best result ever. I should have tried harder on the essay...
But anyway, ISP turned out great. A friend told me I got 97.

Public Relation was kind of easy, the same goes for Advertising, but I bet I won't get a satisfying result on Advertising either because I just didn't try hard enough.

I don't know what to say about Logic, I was never good at it, so I can't really predict anything.
but I did know that I'm going to fail on Communication Science which was today.... sigh.
I wasn't even thinking of studying anymore last night, the subject was hard, and I didn't have the materials so I really don't know how am I suppose to study.

multiple choice was HARD. And I only managed to answer two essays out of three which I later found out to be the wrong answers LOL oh well, at least I tried.

and at least the exams are over, although there's still piano exam on the 28th orz

I kinda hate this month because I have so many things to deal with, and yet I want nothing more than to be able to go back to Japan. Been missing the country like crazy lately. (plus my friends are currently on a trip there and I was supposed to join them before stupid midterm decided to ruin everything)

I'm coming back next year no matter what.
and I gotta improve my piano so it will be possible to take composition in Japan once I finished my 4 years of college ;__; I don't want to take communication anymore


uh, anyway. Enough rambling, I need to shower now.
next entry would probably take months. I figured I better say that instead of hoping it won't take long for the next update because I know that it will hahaha

so yeah, later, strangers.

#05

I'M BACK!

AND I MISSED SO MANY THINGS TO WRITE LOL


I'm going towards my week 4 of college now, and there will be a mid test on monday.
anyway, I ended up doing nothing on my birthday... the day was as dull as it could get.

but at least my parents got me a new laptop, although I would appreciate it more if they'd buy me a baby dolphin, or a panda, or a tiger.... They're the first things on my wish list :(

Well, moving on from that now~ things are looking pretty good so far, I got an A for my first marketing assignment! I'm so glad, I was kind of afraid that I would get an F, BUT IT'S AN A! so yay for me hahaha

now I'm torn between Public Relation, Marketing, and Advertising. Those are the only things I'm interested to major. I hope I will be able to figure it out in the end (sighs)
btw, Marketing has a fiiiiine lecturer alright, I'm rambling now.

I need to get some rest, it's been a long day. I hope the next time I'm going to update wont take so long.


good night

#04

So... I did neglect this blog :/

maybe I'm really not capable in writing in one. I had couple of blogs before this, yet it never last that long. Compared to blog, I like a piece of paper a lot more, it feels more personal.

Anyway, my birthday is in two days. I'm not excited, bassicaly because college starts on that day. I guess I'm too used on spending my birthdays at home, thinking back on the previous birthdays I had. Waiting for somebody to give me what I desperately been waiting for for years by now... I never wanted something so much as a birthday wish, but it is unlikely that I will get it.

I didn't when he was still here, what makes it possible that I will now that he's gone for four years?

Impossible, yet I cannot stop from hoping.

...what am I doing talking about him, anyway?



I want a baby dolphin.

#03

I got sick and forced to go Back home. Bye bye piano exam.
I'll face my disappointment later.

#02

I'm so tired! Today was the student orientation on my campus.
It wasn't so bad, really. You didn't really need to do anything either, except sitting on a hard floor of the auditorium for hours... My ass hurts

I even told to write an essay because I came in late. But I can't really complain since the orientation is just for one day (unlike most universities that will take at least 3 days or even months). And we even got a goodie bag! Lol

most of all,tyne orientation went well. And I think I can get use to the campus life... Maybe.
The seniors were really nice and helpful too.

Good thing my toe didn't bleed, i had a mini surgery to take off my dying nail from my injured toe days ago, and it was hurting so much before, so I'm kind of glad it stopped bleeding today.

Well then, that's all. I got practice tomorrow for my piano examination on Saturday :S
good night!